Wednesday, August 03, 2005

Excuses excuses...

You may have noticed that I have been slacking off on my entries lately. The truth is that I have been in quite a funk for a while and haven't been feeling very motivated towards blogging. I try to keep this blog cheerful and positive, so I haven't mentioned anything about this before. Today, I decided that I you all live in the really real world and know people have problems, so I'll just spill the beans about my sporadic blogging.

Some of you probably already know that I'm not from Florida. I moved here a year and a half ago from Virginia. I had lived in Virginia  my entire life and have never lived more than thirty minutes away from family and friends. The friends I have there are ones I have had for years and years. I grew up with them. One day Rob decided that he wanted to move to Florida so that he could become a pilot. Although the whole idea twisted up my insides, I knew that I was not going to deny him his dreams. Off we went to Florida, and I was uprooted from friends and family and all I had ever known my entire life. I cried almost the entire way down. I had an incredibly hard time adjusting to the move, and became pretty depressed. Rob was gone a lot, when he was home he was studying, and I didn't have anyone here. (That was relieved a bit when my grandmother moved here. Unfortunately we aren't able to see each other that much, so the relief is usually short lived.)

Rob finally graduated school and got a job as a flight instructor so that he could build hours to apply at an airline. Now he is gone from waaaay early in the morning until waaaay late at night. This means that I get to come home from work to an empty house six days a week. He's off on Sundays, but I am rarely off on Sundays so that doesn't do me much good. I still haven't managed to make any friends other than my knitting group that I never get to go to because I always have to work. My boss doesn't allow us to talk to each other at work (can't even take breaks together) so I'm not really able to form friendships there. "We're not paying you to socialize. We do not promote friendship in the workplace." I have gone from being surrounded by my tight knit friends (I haven't seen them since I moved) and family (I haven't seen them in almost a year) to sitting at home talking to my cats. I work. I come home. I knit. I eat. I sleep. I am alone.

My blog sucks because...

I haven't taken pictures of myself in my recent finished projects. I just haven't felt very pretty like. I come home from work, and all I want to do is get in my PJ's and knit. The last thing I am thinking of doing is putting on makeup and fixing my hair for pictures. Plus, it totally stinks trying to take pictures of yourself even if you have a tripod. I haven't blogged much because I can't think of anything to write, and what I do write is at best mediocre. I haven't updated my links because I just haven't felt like it. Mostly I just knit and read other people's blogs.

I hate to be a big ole downer, and I don't want you to feel bad for me. I just felt like getting this off my chest. I am working on solutions to my problems. I am working towards a new job. It's one that will enable me to have a flexible enough schedule that I can return back to school.  This new job will also allow me to be off on Sundays! This means being home with Rob on his day off and getting to go to church.  School and Church=People Interaction, People Interaction=Friends, and Friends=Happy Stacie! Actually the job training is my most recent blogging inhibitor. I work a full eight hour day and then go straight to training for my new job. Oh and then there's the fact that we are moving to another City. Me busy? Nah!

Just bear with me a little while longer, and I'll get it all back together. All my blogging plans will one day come to fruition. I'll get my yarn inventoried complete with pictures. I'll get my gallery set up. I'll update my pattern lists. I'll take some bleepin' pictures of myself :) If you have made it all the way to the end of this entry I congratulate you! Thanks for stickin' it out. Cross your fingers for some darn pictures and have a fabulous week. I'm going to bed before I fall asleep with my head on the keyboard.